This and That

Well, first, I don't know why my Easter post is showing as the current post.  Just chalk it up to the computer having a mind of its own.  

Anyway, while I feel like a lot has happened since my last post, it doesn't sound like it.   My thyroid ultrasound was good, my lab numbers are on target.  So, not sure what is next on that front.  I'm still out of breath, my feet are swollen and I look like hell.  Could be because I'm 70, but probably because I'm just not taking care of myself. 

Day to day, I'm still writing for Cape Fear Voices, Leland Magazine and Coastal Buzz and in February, I had a story in each one.  That was a first for me. 

My time is spent working on the Cape Fear Voices Awards Dinner on March 14, writing, editing and trying to keep track of deadlines.   Tomorrow, I go back to Leland Middle School to work with their journalism club.  We have lots of other stuff coming up.  Tony's 75th birthday is the 24th, so we are going out to dinner with Donna and Bob.  David and Tony Jr., are coming up the week before to golf and celebrate Tony's birthday.  They both have family commitments the week of his birthday, but whenever they come, it's always a good time for Tony.    

We are going to Florida in March for Birdie's birthday and to have dinner with our sister in law, Joyce.  Donna and Bob will be at Disney World during the same time, so maybe we can all get together.  

We are planning a trip to the Outer Banks for our anniversary, then we're going to Hilton Head in August.  We will probably go to Cleveland in June, but so much depends on Jenna and the kid's schedules. 

I feel like I have copped out on my January decisions.  I said that I have spent the last 3 years of retirement sleep walking and I was going to change that this year.  So far, I haven't and it bothers me more than I like people to know.

I get up every day with the thought of doing something different today.  To exercise, to walk, to move out of the chair and do something, anything.  And then I check my emails and there are things to fix, decisions to make, meetings to take and deadlines to make.  And so, I am still here, in the office, in front of the computer.  Do I like it?  No, but, hey, isn't it better than getting up everyday and watching hours of Dr. Phil shows that I have seen before?  I said I wanted what Tony had--5 years of retirement where he does exactly what he wants to do.  I haven't had that yet, but I'm not sure if I had it, that it would be a good thing for me.  

I know this is part depression, part age, part mentality, but I struggle to get past it.  To do something.  To accomplish more than just computer stuff.  My creative side is fighting with my health side and I'm not sure which one is winning at this point.

But, despite it all, I have a level of happiness.  We still spend out time on the lanai at 5:00 p.m., it is important for us to be there and be present for each other.  Dixie hears the music and she comes out to be with us.  We are the unit and there is comfort in that.   We talk about so many things.  We laugh, we tease each other and we listen to each other.  That's the important part.  The noise of the day goes away and is replaced by blue and white twinkle lights, music and wine.  It is the best part of the day.   I hope that many people have "lanai" time.  It is good for the soul.

And so, another month is well under way.  How quickly time goes by.  How quickly time stands still.  Both are correct, it's just a matter of perspective.  Where are you?